It's been a hard week. My anxiety is unpredictable. Sometimes I'm able to function normally and go throughout my day with only minor damage control, while other days it seems impossible to do even the simplest of tasks.
A couple days ago I had to write a paragraph analyzing a painting. It was one of those special days filled with anxiety and sadness, and I literally had a mental break down because writing that paragraph felt impossible. After a long while, I was able to make my mind chill and I just told myself I didn't have to write it. I stopped worrying about it for a while, and later that night I WAS ACTUALLY ABLE TO WRITE IT! #IROCK
If I was comparing myself to the 30,000 other BYU students who could probably write a paragraph about art in their sleep, I would feel pretty bad about myself and my capabilities right now. But I've realized that that isn't important. What is important is that I am progressing and that I am doing the best I can.
No matter who you are or what you're doing, stop being so hard on yourself. Give yourself credit for even the little things, even if it's just writing a paragraph, because you deserve it. We are all doing our best, and we deserve to feel good about ourselves for continuing to try.
"So keep loving. Keep trying. Keep trusting. Keep believing. Keep growing. Heaven is cheering you on today, tomorrow, and forever."
-Elder Holland
Girl. I'm the exact same way. I never had anxiety until I got home and school made it spin out of control. I learned that I legitimately cannot take more than 6 credits at a time and expect to be happy. It's so hard to deal with, but freaking GOOD JOB at dealing with it on the daily.
ReplyDeleteLove you too bits, and keep kicking butt. But also just take a break if you need it haha. Both are important.